The World is My Oyster

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 02:42:50 GMT

I'm still alive... :)

can u keep up?

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 19:44:50 GMT

I don't think I can keep up with this journal. I can't even keep up in my life.

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 05:38:40 GMT

Dear Arnold Schwarzenegger,

Please lower the tuition for public California universities.
Thank you and have a nice day :-).

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 06:54:52 GMT

Wow, am I selfish. lol...
For the future, I know to never get my friends makeup for their birthdays because I will end up keeping it! haha :(

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 05:22:33 GMT

MY HOROSCOPE: "Love may not be in the air, but romance certainly is -- romance of the
most secret kind. This includes 'coincidental' meetings at the
water-cooler, whispered conversations and meaningful glances."

--> Definitely true.. hahaha. I am so in lust and infatuated with this guy, that I have fantasies about making out with him in the elevator. I always make an excuse to be near him at work, and make it a "coincidence". And we have had our moments at the water-cooler. He put me in a good mood for the rest of the day.

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 19:57:56 GMT

So many guys, so many crushes. I'm glad I've moved on.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 00:27:42 GMT

I am so stressed! ugh!
Change definitely does not come with ease.
Hopefully once everything settles, I will enjoy my new life.

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 21:39:44 GMT

So I saw that a book of mine had a price sticker on it that said $7.95, but underneath it, there was another sticker. I checked to see what price it was, and it said $5.00..hmph..I mean, it's not a big difference, but I don't see why they made me spend $2.95 more when i could have perfectly spent it on a nice vanilla latte.

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 06:01:35 GMT

Well, I am certainly a changed person. Although I have been stubborn before, I'm now acknowledging that life is a lesson itself, and that I should learn from everything that happens to me. We fall "so we can learn to pick ourselves up again". And that is just what I have done.

i can't get this out of my head..

Mon, 23 May 2005 05:50:45 GMT

Broken skies, heartaches that flowers won't mend
Say goodbye knowing that this is the end
Tender dreams, shadows fall
Love too sweet, to recall
Dry your eyes, Face the dawn
Life will go on

All day long thought that we still had a chance
Letting go, this is the end of romance
Broken hearts find your way
Make it through just this day
Face the world on your own
Life will go on, life will go on

There'll be blue skies, every true love
Someday I'll hold you again
They'll be blue skies in a better world, darlin'

Tender dreams, shadows fall
Love too sweet, to recall
Dry your eyes, Face the dawn
Life will go on, life will go on
Broken heart find your way
Make it through just this day
Face the world on your own
Life will go on

Mon, 02 May 2005 07:35:28 GMT

Today was a horrible day. I felt like killing myself, but I didn't. I tried to cut my arm with the glass of the picture frame my mom broke. my dad took away the glass. I never cut myself, but I was just sick of the fighting.
Some people can be so psychotic and bipolar. I hate it. I just want to live in peace.

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 08:32:43 GMT

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't
Give me a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

lyrics that explain me right now.

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 06:35:09 GMT

"Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I’m only falling apart
There’s nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there’s only love in the dark" -Bonnie Tyler

"But I do believe
That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly you won't give up on me" -Sheryl Crow

"Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't
You can't make your heart feel, something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, And I'll feel the power - but you won't" -Bonnie Raitt

"'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can" -Celine Dion

"Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life" -Chantal Kreviazuk

"Rhythmic motion
Raw emotion
Infiltrating through
Sweet sensations
Hot temptations
Coming over you" -Jem

"I can't help myself
I've got to see you again" -Norah Jones

"Baby, can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind" -Mariah Carey

"Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight, till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight.
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be, then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me" -Selena

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 06:57:19 GMT

I think I'm having a major identity crisis here.
I don't know why I'm doing the things I'm doing.
I don't know why I'm with the people I'm with.
I feel like everything I do is useless, so I have no motivation.
I want to go with my heart for certain matters, but in the end, I don't know if it would be worth it.
There's this wave of depression over me, and I don't know how to recover.

oooo my god, i wonder if it's true!!!!

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 01:34:40 GMT

Your horoscope for
Friday, March 25, 2005

The full moon will allow you to find out whether or not a wish will come true. This could involve someone you want to befriend or a guy you want to date--you may find out if he's going to ask you to the prom. If things don't go your way now, you may come to realize that you already have everything you need.

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 00:47:12 GMT

hm.. still very mad at myself.

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 20:55:07 GMT

I had a dream that people were chasing me in a grocery store, and I was trying to buy small bottles of wine. But then I ended up having grape juice instead. Then I was in a department store and was talking about ralph lauren clothes...other strange things happened but i just don't remember.

For some reason, I'm feeling very left out of things at the moment, and I don't like it one bit. It makes me sad, but then I realize that I'm going to college soon. Who knows though. It might be like this over there too.

bored out of my mind.

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 06:41:42 GMT

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 86, find line 4. Write down what it says:

In this manner sissonne fondue is studied in the advanced classes.

hm.. okay..

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 03:46:38 GMT

i just don't feel happy anymore.
i need a new life.

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 08:23:05 GMT

You scored 60% Earth

You approach life in an Earthy way -- you're grounded, sensual, practical and reliable. Perhaps you have some Earth Signs in your birth chart. If your Mr. Perfect is an Earth Sign -- a Taurus, a Virgo or a Capricorn -- he's probably attracted to you for your dependability and loyalty, not to mention your utter sensuality. The Water Signs -- Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces -- also make great matches for Earth Signs; if your man is a Water Sign, he's a bit of an emotional dreamer who appreciates you for the way you provide him with a firm, steady base. If he's a Fire or an Air Sign, yours might be a case of "opposites attract"! If he's an Aries, a Leo or a Sagittarius, he might find your relaxed, sensual nature a bit too, well, relaxed; if he's a Gemini, a Libra or an Aquarius, he might be interested in something other than your witty repartee.

You scored 30% Water

You may feel Water's influence in your birth chart, since you certainly feel it in your daily life -- you're sensitive, emotional and deep, possessed of a poetic and romantic nature. If your man is a Water Sign as well -- a Cancer, a Scorpio or a Pisces -- you're probably a great match, since you share an intuitive connection and you both have compassionate, understanding natures! If he's an Earth Sign -- a Taurus, a Virgo or a Capricorn -- he loves you for your deeply emotional nature, and loves to provide you with the grounding influence you need. If he's a Fire or an Air Sign, yours may not have been the most natural or immediate of connections -- which isn't to say it can't work between you. If he's an Aries, a Leo or a Sagittarius, he might find you a bit too clingy and sensitive for his tastes; if he's a Gemini, a Libra or an Aquarius, he might be a bit put off or intimidated by the emotional way in which you approach the world.

You scored 10% Fire

You've got lots of Fire energy motivating your actions and desires; you may have some Fire in your birth chart. If the man of your dreams is a Fire Sign -- an Aries, a Leo or a Sagittarius -- your connection will be truly hot and a lot of fun. However, your relationship might just be combustible, so watch out that you don't burn one another alive! If your Mr. Right is an Air Sign -- a Gemini, a Libra or an Aquarius -- it's also a good match; Air fuels Fire and helps it spread, and Fire Signs always keep Air Signs interested and guessing! If your man is an Earth or a Water Sign, yours might be a bit less than a perfectly smooth and flowing relationship. If he's a Taurus, a Virgo or a Capricorn, your heady energy and risky behavior might put him on edge; if he's a Cancer, a Scorpio or a Pisces, you might be a bit too insensitive for him -- though he's so sensitive himself, he probably won't say anything about it.

You scored 0% Air

You've got the markings of an Air Sign -- a Gemini, a Libra or an Aquarius. You may have some Air in your birth chart, since you tend to approach things from an intellectual point of view and can't sustain an attraction to someone who doesn't stimulate you mentally, first and foremost. For that reason, your Mr. Right might be an Air Sign as well, as yours would truly be a meeting of the minds (and wits). If he's a Fire Sign -- an Aries, a Leo or a Sagittarius -- he might not be as into art and literature as you are, but he's still likely to appreciate your scintillating wit and fun, social nature! If he's an Earth or a Water Sign, you two might be meeting on some other level. If he's a Taurus, a Virgo or a Capricorn, he loves your mind but might wish it were a bit more focused or dedicated; if he's a Cancer, a Scorpio or a Pisces, he might try to get you to spend more time at home with him, emoting.

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 08:14:05 GMT

Find Your Secret Valentine

You scored 40% Emotionally in tune, creative

You want your date to be emotionally sensitive, someone who thinks deeply about life and their place in it. Ask a Cancer, a Scorpio or a Pisces to go to a cafe and share a pot of soothing Japanese green tea with you. Give your date a homemade Valentine made of pretty paper and dried flowers; this will be the perfect gift to soften up your date's heart, opening up the evening for sharing your life stories, your hopes and your dreams. See where it goes from there!

You scored 20% Traditional, romantic, stable

You like a date who observes all the romantic traditions of Valentine's Day and of dating in general, complete with flowers, nice clothes, impeccable manners and a classically romantic setting. Ask a Taurus, a Virgo or a Capricorn to accompany you for dinner at that new, slightly-upscale restaurant downtown. You can sample calamari and arugula-and-endive appetizers while getting to know one another better. Top off the evening with a stop at a bakery; order one piece of tiramisu and two forks. At the end of the night, give your date some rich, dark chocolate wrapped in red velvet, to sample later, together.

You scored 20% Lively, intelligent, witty

You want your date to keep you entertained with funny and interesting stories; you don't like a date who has no opinions of their own. Ask a Gemini, a Libra or an Aquarius to attend the dinner party you're throwing. Light candles to create a fun, intimate setting. Give your date a gift of a funny Valentine's poem you wrote yourself. Your friends can check out your date and cast their votes -- "keeper" or "sleeper."

You scored 20% Fun-with-a-wild-side

You want your date for Valentine's Day to be like you -- a little wild, a little unpredictable and lots of fun! Ask out an Aries, a Leo or a Sagittarius in the only way you know how -- by being direct. March right up and say "You got plans for Valentine's Day? No? Good, because I've got some for you!" Tell your date you have tickets to a live show; then, at the club, talk to the manager and see if you and your date can dance together onstage.

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 04:46:25 GMT

I think I have a void.
Why else do I feel unsatisfied? I spend hours of doing nothing, just searching and searching for something. I think so much, and yet it's all useless. I have approximately 2:15 hours until I -want to- go to bed, but I have so much to do.
III neeeed love...but not some sentimental prison.
I can't concentrate. I feel stupid.
Who will fill my void to make me feel better?

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 00:51:28 GMT

I was listening to some music last night before I went to bed. I think it was movie scores of different dramatic movies. All of the sudden, the combination of the piano and violin stirred up so much emotion in me that I was overwhelmed with thoughts, and felt very sick. My heart was beating really fast, and all I could think about was my relationship with someone. I didn't know music can have such an effect on me.

Today was alright. Got sufficient attention from one person, but none from my beloved crush.
Valentine's Day is coming up, and I don't know what to do.

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 05:59:26 GMT

I have a smile
stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road
we meet at the lights
I stare for a while
the world around us disappears
it's just you and me
on my island of hope
a breath between us could be miles
let me surround you
my sea to your shore
let me be the calm you seek
oh and every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away
and I forgot
to tell you
I love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you
I grieve in my condition
for I cannot find the words to say i need you so
oh and every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away
and I forgot
to tell you
I love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you
I grieve in my condition
for I cannot find the words to say I need you so

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 06:15:06 GMT

why did my family have to make me cry on thanksgiving?
I hate them so much, just as much as they hate me.
I can't stop sobbing.